TodaysEnding

Hey, Hi, How are ya? Okay well first things first,

I have run out of things to write about other than Allison (whom is my fictional character) I'd like to write about more diverse topics which, I assume is not a supprise to you. I'm tired of the same ole picture adding, Lyric giving, ranting raving, random blogging. I need to find my purpose as a writer other than this lame love triangle that I assume Zip are interested in. I've been reading Lot's and plan on starting back up on novel for I have abandon it,That happens to be a grief of mine because I feel it has so much potential and for those who have read my first couple of pages agreed. I do have my fair share of faithful readers whom have and are very supportive of my writing. So thank you to them!

The Model Behind The words<3

Photos Done by - AlienCraft & kaprix

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Some of the things that make me happy.

Sleeping Babies

Shopping

Close Hugs

Chocolate

Chillin by the lake

Signed, MissMeeka

A relationship

I'm not quiet sure what you do.
But somehow when i walk away from you
i feel like i have nothing to look forward to
You care for other people you sympathize them
But with me you are so hard and cold
like what I feel is not really there at all..
You wonder why i tell you i'm leaving
You obviously dont believe me
To you whatever i do isnt right
Even though i try so hard to prove you wrong
I always want to break down and be like the rest
but then that would be proving you right
My heart aches from the verbal abuse
My soul crys for days
Though you think you've been forgiven
When I'm happy and enjoy myself
You tell me i'm concieted and witchlike
I tell you things like i dont cry for you
because really i'm crying because of you
I'm selfish, mean,homely,careless and rude
You tell me my actions are reflection of myself
you tell me i have no reason to be unhappy
with all this you still say I love you too.

Somethings Can be overlooked

There they were sitting under tree. The moon light shining on the lake the stars high above them. Talking and laughing with the voices of their ancestors the foot steps of there brothers and sisters behind them. She thought What can be more perfect The first time they actually had a conversation. They sat together worried if anyone would come up to them and ruin what was going. Without realizing they really had nothing to talk about yes there was the attraction yes there was the longing that haven't been fulfilled.

They had that not knowing what the two would ever be together. she thought and thought of days like this here it was what she wanted and it was passing her by not paying attention to his handsome looks and he's speech.

Removing her natural way of thinking she was stunned star struck for he was a star to her unknowing of what he was really like what he really had in store for her. The two never really had perfect timing you think this would be a perfecting ending story for she had wrote so many endings to the romance. Had she blinded herself? Forgetting her standards but for what standard had she had? Her last relationship was with a boy who she had not really liked but only for the fact she didn't want to hurt him.

This ex of hers Took many things from her that she hadn't wanted lost. Had she been called down so many times to have not seen what true beauty she really had? She was not perfectly set for what this perfect moment could have been.This girl was never told how beautiful and nice and giving she was. She had not known anything? How could she for god sakes she was raised by slobs.This girl spends her days in her mind thinking and wishing and wondering about how things Could be. What could be is what keeps her alive. This man that she had so sweetly fallen for hadn't the heart that she needed.

He did not wont her and for why? Because he only wanted something that she could keep that she kept That separates her from the others which makes this girl "pure" He can not have this girl. She is too good for him. This girl is considered pure untouched by man. But yet she feels she has nothing. She longs to be in love she longs for these moments to last for they don't happen often. What could be of this girl? What fortune can she have? Is she worth your time. IS she worth your tears? A girl who would treat you the way you should be how every man should be treated instead of these wenches. why hasn't anyone fallen for her? She is not rude she isn't ugly she is not spoiled? What is wrong with this girl..

Why hadn't this boy taken her love. This man left her for what? For why? What have she done to deserve to be treated like nothing. He spends his days on his pass. She baffled at the fact that now she's being told shes good and wonders why doesn't he want her? Why does he tell her longs for others? This girl is everything you need. Why hadn't he given her the time to show herself to him? Why didn't he fight for her? Why hadn't he try..

SometimesThisWorldDoesntMakeSense

But that's something that we all new? correct?

Poems from My Past-

So the title basically explains it here's some of my poems from the past :)


-Without beholding.

Lately I've Spent Too much time thinking about what could beOnly wishing you would seeDressing for you, knowing that you'll never care..It kills me and it's hard to bareCould you take the moment to look in my eyesAnd tell me what I feel is all lies

-The Unspoken Words

Here's for the words said unspoken. So i write this letter backwards to say I love you first.
I'm so sorry your close to broken. Cause my life is about to burst.
Your my light that's there to give me hope. Please understand because this is no joke.
I'm stuck and I need you to help me cope. I barely know you but. I've knowen you my whole life. And maybe one day my spouse. But that might be going to far. With out you I feel like heading to the bar. Life with you is just so much better. But Now I feel it's time to end this Letter.

-I love that.

You know when your walking... and you get that light smelll of flowers but dont see them..You know when you check your mail .. and find an unexpected checkYou know when your sad.. and your driving your favourite song comes on..You know when you want to do something fun... and someone calls and asks you out!!You know that secrect.. feeling of accomplishment when you clean your room..or when you turn your head and relize that mother earth is sooo beatifulyou know how somedays you feel great and you pick up a piece of garbage when some one you know can finsh your sentences and is rightwhen your hair is doing what you want it too..when that guy you secretly crush on says something nice to you..when your with a friend and you guys laugh so hard at nothing..well... I love that..

- Recent actually right now

A broken heart has been healed
The deal between me and you is perfectly sealed
I walk my paths with a smile
Because i know that I have walked the mile
I past those stepping stones
This Gives me a joy further beyond my bones
Yes I remember and always will
My life is still so young
Have yet to feel the true meaning of life
I will not turn my head to my past
Because The pain has no reason to last

Thoughts of my Mind?

I Sit here in this room full of nothing. Pondering and smiling about the past.I miss my past. If I could go back to one day it'd be september 29, 2007.Sometimes I wish I could go back and Start all over.But then I think I would have just repeated everything that's already happen. I couldnt go through all that again.My past is my past. I should be worried and Planning and changing my future. I Feel as if at my age I am love driven? But tell me what teenage girl isnt? at least I have head on my shoulders unlike half the teenage girl population.I'm a hopeless romantic. And really all i want is someone there.Just to be there.... just for me. Someone to care.. and want to know

about me? that's all I want. Seems impossible to find here. where i live. I mean i dont have very many friends and well i'm not the greatest looking haha but i mean i think i have a good personility? maybe not great but good? haha oh it doesnt matter.

P.s sorry i havent written in awhile and the unexplainable last post was to be a hint that i have lost my internet! booo :( oh well i'm very resourceful i can always getter done!

Signed, MissMeeka

*goodGrief*

Forever welll my life be on hold tell the moment; That the 5 lights of the blue tower glow once more.

*rolls eyes* In other words,

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around."
Leo Buscaglia

May i just point out that today happen to be one of two things

Anti Valentines Day - i know i was like tear tear nobody loves me haha but i got a lovely flower from a loving friend(L).Props to him for being a nervous reck in the flower shop haha god that made my day :)

OR - Drum roll please..


Tell someone there're beautiful day aka random acts of kindness day - Try and flip there day by flashing your pearly whites :D


Signed, MissMeeka

My fair Lady

Miss Audrey Hepburn - Is my idol. :)

Why Are You In My Head

I was thinking does life have to be what it is? Should we sit here and except what happens to us? what is said to us? we have the power to change all of it in matter of minutes just by changing our state of mind - Am I positive? Or Am I negative? - I'm probably the queen of negativity but I am not alone. I mean well, I wasn't always this way. In the past year or so I lost love for the things I loved - I lack my motivation and confidence I once had - I lost my life and now drown myself with my thoughts, Life- you only live once. Why are there those people who always make it 10 times more difficult for you to do or say anything? To kick you when your down-

A word of advice for them: Go fuck your self.

Signed,MissMeeka

Character-

Follow up on a previous note- i'm done with it *shakes head* no girl needs frozen tears for a broken heart.

Profound Beauty

What does it mean to be beautiful? Today each female struggles to be beautiful; To get skinnier, To be taller/shorter,To have bigger smile, Whiter teeth, Nice hair(straight,Curly,Soft,long,short),To have the in clothing, A different eye color,Bigger lips, Larger/smaller breasts, Bigger butts. For what? to mold each individual into todays view of beauty. I know that it's starting to change But how often do you really see women That look like this? in a magazine - Not very often that's for sure - Why cant these women be our regular models?




That seems more realistc - These are our regular women the kind you would see going grocery shopping. - Living the same kind of lives as you and me.

As for these women - they spend long hours to look like this diets and what not.

Now, I'm not trying to be judgmental to them because they are very beautiful but it's so sad to see children to be worried about their appearance because of the media. I mean wow.. i wish i could look like that haha But for the most part it is unrealistic for some to be this. I Think that every women is beautiful in her way, it's not always about appearance - but i guess that's what it has come to. Another thing is that this adds that say we can get you skinner faster and have it not work we are being bought into this they are attacking this specific group the most influential.

So yes, What does is feel like to beautiful - To be happy with your own skin, To be able to keep your head up high and know that you are beautiful to yourself and it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks - Cause confidence is key. And to be honest... you dont want to look like her..-->


I hate to say this but she does look a malnutrition patient, Yes the outer beauty is a factor but The inner beauty glows and gives you a great power over the women who have it all in appearance and thats something that well never have.

Signed,MissMeeka

Common Roll The Dice

hello!! Let's gamble.. or not but you know it's all the same.I have been blogging with an extremely slow laptop so each letter doesn't show up for at least 34seconds, Which happens to really suck because I have to go back and fix my errors which takes even longer PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE but! Slow laptops is just unnecessary.

So anyways, I am sick with some sort of flu, I waited at the doctors office for about 3hours for them to tell me that all i need is lot's of fluids and rest.THATS it...oh my, my mother could have told me that.Anyways I happen to talk to this person we'll just call this person "The Character" mmmkay :).

Character is an unexplainable human being.I couldn't explain character in a 1000 words.Or to even explain my relationship with the character.mhm Now don't get any ideas, this is not romantic in any which way.Okay sorry I'm off topic Explanation of the character is irrelevant this far in.The character shall be for another post,I just thought i'd mention there is a character in the life of MissMeeka.

As for this post I want to let my readers (if i have any) know that i well be posting an interview on an aboriginal musician ( who happens to be my cousin lol) - It is unorthodox for me because that's not my typical posting but i wanted to know if you had any ideas for some good questions? :D

This has been a Scatter post from MissMeeka

JustalittleLove?

Did you know that love is one of the most common themes in art and music. Could really define love? Can you explain it and have your listener understand? Love is another happiness. Here is Thomas Jay Oord's definition: to love is to act intentionally, in sympathetic response to others (including God), to promote overall well-being.But yet his definition is so.. excluded to only one type of love which is to another human being. I think there is so any types of love, There is so any types of stages of love.. I believe i love you to my knowledge of what love is to me at my age.What love is to me now, may very well be absolutely different to what love well be to me when I'm 40. Can you keep someone from loving you? Can you make there fall softer?

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.Love never fails"

I really love that verse.:) To my understanding love does not come easily it takes time and you feel it all around. I have not been in love,But i am young and there's plenty of time for that.Before i leave you with this my last question for the night Is love pain?

Signed,MissMeeka

PeaceSerenity

Ahh Summer Time - when my mind is at it's most loving time.Winter has it way of making everyone kinda down and couped up.Summer is around the corner! there is hope! don't loose your self just think next thing you know you'll be sitting on the beach with moonlit water to keep you company.Just you and your thoughts & the sounds of the cool water splashing against the sharp rocks. Distance sounds of music from the house across the lake.Yup, Summer is great.A time of the year to get that perfect tan - To meet that sumer fling. mhm Sounds lovely. I was just sitting here at my desk wishing I could go down to the beach lay there for hours on end just soken up the sun.This Monsertious season has all couped up inside cause it's ether too cold or too wet.Ahh northern ontario gotta love the weather :)

Signed,MissMeeka

,.LetUsMakeCake.,

February! ahh the month of love? or brutal torture for the lonely yet not forgotten group singles! I may be 15 but not getting anything from anyone not even a secret admirer just let's you down.& then you go out and buy some chocolate and or ice cream and sit at home watching romantic chick flicks.. That sounds just about right for how my V-days going to go ALTHOUGH! This valentine's day was suppose to be really special.. my plans just didn't work.But that's not why I'm writing this post! I'm talking about CAKE! :)

Yes, Cake the perfect mixture! the absolute combination, all combined to make cake.. Each ingredient perfectly crafted, mixture,stirred,cracked,poured,whipped made into a creamy delight as each molecule is destined to a perfection that not even we can reach , to slowly melt as it reaches that tender moment that we try and savor but cannot help but demolish in seconds and want more but then there comes the guilt,calories,and resentment..

otherwise known as : Love

I was curious, Does the excitement pass you by while in it - because your worried you'll lose those very moments at which you cannot bring back. The feeling you feel as you lay beside that one person- Can you feel their warmth? hear their heart beat - thumping faster and faster as you two become more in tune with each others thoughts to know that you don't have to say one word but just to know that you both feel the same yet not even together- Can you bring back those very moments by laying alone? i would say yes if you have a very productive imagination. But for the rest of us we are yet stuck with longings that cannot be fulfilled nor spoken aloud.simply known as cake.


Signed,MissMeeka

FirstIWasAfraidIWasPetrified!

Elvis Presley! *crowd of girls scream*

I wish i could go back in time
I defiantly would have married him.
♥


Signed,MissMeeka

TodaysWorldTodaysLife<3

Hello, again.. I'm sitting here in my room.. just curious what other people are doing at this moment.. listening to music. sad? Driving around with friends.Having the best day EVER! each day passes by and everyone goes on with there life. Do ever just stop and think about anything other than your own life? Wonder about the millions of other people on this planet, I do. Ponder about your future and let your present pass you by. Live in your imagination and follow your music. Wake and walk a life that your not even there for? or CEASE each moment Love each person. Smile and know.. that you count! not only to yourself but to the people around you because you are indeed! a part of there life and have an effect on which well happen to them. Our minds are easily so closed to what else is around us, and that's how we miss So much and wake up one day realizing that our youth or life has passed us by.. To Learn to everything at the moment! and feel and remember everything vividly! Is it possible for it to be that way.. or am i just a dreamer in a world were dreaming doesn't inflict anyones life!


Signed,MissMeeka♥

The reason of the burning ANKLES

P.SS

Warning to anyone- If you think working at a coffee shop is fun! FYI it's not it's LONG and PAINFUL! especially if you have your boss breathe down your neck for 5 hours.. :| but it
does have some pro's but the con's DEFINETLY Over right the pros :)


Love Thee Day!

MissMeeka

ButMyANKLESareonFire!

This blog business is very competitive not that i am one to complain, MY thoughts are here for everyone to enjoy:) Daily bit's and pieces I'm just a beginner i am learning SLOWLY but surely yes.. slowly Emotional roller coaster! yes no? NO> of course! ahah love is like a growing flower.. you learn and your petals fall off.. 1 2 3 4 okay sorry.. lost my train of though.. hmmm..? WHERE was I haha yes.. slowly yeah sorry I'm am totally scatter brain today.. I really love the idea of one day of being in a community where people do follow ups and read and listening and learn about other people lives.. Seems so.. like.. INTERESTING cause i myself being 15.. I probably wont get very many readers but one day! one day.. i well.. and you'll come to realize that i am not your average 15 year old.. but that would be contradicting what I'm trying to say by saying that because that's very 15 yr old likeish.. ahh not the point. The point is that there is very brilliant bloggers that i have discovered! and i give you props, I personally just love how people display there blogs and grow a community and oh it's just awesome. Also i'd like to say the Girlysmack does a wonderful job on her blog! and I personally really enjoy reading it! I really do admire your blog!

Signed, missmeeka

I Can see the sunset in your eyes! <3

You know how when your angry.. and just being alone and doing your thing by yourself for a little bit suddenly makes the world a better place.. I think it's because we need to have our brains calmed and not be overwhelmed by others and the outside world.. spending some quality time with your self pays off. You can learn many things by yourself.. Blow off some steam.. or just give your self some good treatments.. paying your self some compliments seem to be helpful it's not being conceited it's just giving yourself that little extra confidence that we all need. To know yourself well makes it easier to make decisions i would think..

Signed,MissMeeka

Living AT home TILL when!?

So i was talking to my cousin today.. and we were talking about todays teens..
or i should say adult children.. I don't understand why leaving the nest is so hard
Living on your own and doing everything on your own should be empowering and
excelling at your own pace to become better over time. For my Self as soon as I'm old
enough I'm out of this baby. There's so much more to life then Just living at home..
To make your money and to buy your own things to set up everything how you want it.. Struggling learn helping asking for help how are you ever going to learn those life
lessons if you stay at home for the rest of your life? what are you going to do when
your parent dies no one lives for ever eventually your going to have learn the older your

are.. the saying "cant teach an old dog new tricks" should kick in about then. I don't know

I shouldn't be saying anything tell I'm in that situation but I'm so passionate about going
off to school and starting my life..


signed, missmeeka

TheSoundings!

Okay!!! Seriously I couldn't live with myself :|
MY first blog and I'm totally whining about my life.
How stereotypical of me.So here my first second one
You know! I'm sitting here in my bedroom my lights are
on my back is killing me from this chair, I've been sitting in
this position For 3 and half hour checking my face book
and talking to randoms.. aha - Writing is my deal
I do it a lot.. I'm actually writing a book.. I'm only up to
page 4 kinda got a writers block on page 4 i think i should re
think the whole story.. it's so obvious it my life. Well you know
I thought it'd be genius to write a book on my life because i have
some pretty funny moment's.So I thought. here's some quotes from
it anyways



"Allison looking around the bathroom noticing there is no tolit paper..
"ugh that annoys me"she thought."



" "Allison!" "Allison" "ALLISON!"

"What!?" Allison replied to the voice behind her.

What are you doing tomorrow after school? Ashton yells.

um.. nothing why? Alison feel a sense of an excitement hoping he'll ask her to hang out.

Well .. i was wondering' Can you work for me..? he replies

Oh.. she said disappointingly

Please Allison i really want to go to this party he asked pleadingly

Oh actually i cant, I'm going out of town, she lied..

Oh really, okay well thanks anyways a Ashton says walking away from her

Next time! she yelled.. next time.. you'll ask me to hang out she thought."


lol okay, Obviously i spend to much time in my head i think a lot
but really what can i do i live in a world where reality bites!
My imagination & music is what makes this world so worth while
How many people do you know that put shoes on there wall?
Or would rather take 100 pictures of themselves then go out?
hehe yes- I am guilty as charged :| but you know Life has it's
way of dealing with things:).

Yours truly

MissMeeka <3